Please pray for me and/or send me all the positive thoughts that you can, even if you're an atheist.
Here is the story. Saturday night my lower back started hurting really bad, more than normal. I've lived with moderate to severe back pain because of three herniated disc and a fourth completely degenerated disc for some years now, but Saturday night it started to hurt worse than any pain I've ever felt before.
Also, I'll go ahead and say it, NEVER GO TO NEWTON MEDICAL CENTER EMERGENCY ROOM if you're in severe pain, they will not believe you, and probably outright call you a junkie.
Literally, ever move I make, and sometimes I'm not even moving, and the pain is so excruciating that I scream out in pain, and when it doesn't stop I just sit there and scream and cry and kick my legs around. Its the worse pain I've ever felt in my life.
I cannot walk, I cannot stand up, and I can't even roll over in bed without excruciating pain. I just cannot even get up and walk or even stand, even to go to the bathroom. Someone has to help me turn over in bed, and the only relief I can get is to stay in one certain spot and not move, and even then the horrible pain still comes on for no reason at all.
The first day I could not walk to get into a vehicle so they could take me to the ER. The second morning of the pain it just kept getting worse, and so I took the strongest, legally prescribed pain medicine that I had, and just bulldawged my way into the vehicle, kicking, screaming and crying, with two of my biggest friends carrying me by the shoulders.
Once at the ER, they sat me in a wheel chair which is incredibly painful for someone having this kind of pain, it offers no back support what-so-ever, and was straight up and down a 90 degree angle. I sat there and screamed and cried out loud and kick my legs in the ER for 8 hours, before they finally took me back, and gave me one simple shot of demerol and it barely even touched the pain. It was so embarrassing to have all those people staring at me, screaming out loud, crying, and kick my legs for that long. I even made a couple of children who were in the ER cry, I guess because I scared them because of all the pain I was having. I felt awful about that, but there was nothing I could do about it. Legally prescribed Oxycodon will not touch the pain, either, earlier that day. Nothing they have given me so far has even touched the pain until now.
All my pain medicine and muscle relaxers had LONG run out and been gone for hours by the time they took me back to the ER.
It felt like torture, it felt inhuman, and they wouldn't even find me a cot or anything so I could lay down in, they made me sit there, screaming and crying in pain, in that uncomfortable wheel chair for 8 hours and they would do nothing to help me at all.
I saw numerous people with nothing appearing to be wrong with them at all, get called back by the nurse and walk back and get a room before I did. I had numerous people walk up to me, and they couldn't believe that I was sitting there in that much pain, nobody would do anything to help me, and nobody would take me back ahead of some of the people that didn't appear to have one single thing wrong with them. I had numerous people who were sitting in the ER with me, walk up to me and tell me they were so sorry, and they would pray for my pain to be relieved.
Then when I did finally get back there, after 8 hours, the nurses Gestapo'd myself, then separated my wife and my mother and intensely questioned us about the Oxycodon, which we made ABUNDANTLY CLEAR I was legally prescribed the medicine by a doctor, and they told me they would not give me any pain medicine, even though all of it had worn off by then. :screwy: Who on earth has brainwashed all these nurses that anybody who would dare take the regular dose of Oxycodon for a day must be some kind of a junky, that is addicted to drugs or pills? These people acted crazy. :screwy: I was basically treated like I was a junkie or something like that. Like I was making up the pain I was feeling, like the tears and screams were not real, I was so upset at all of this. Do you really think someone could cry and scream for 8 hours straight in front of them if I had been faking it? REALLY? I couldn't believe they were treating me like that. I was in shock and I was also fairly angry at this point to, basically being treated like I was doing something wrong. I only took approximately one, legally prescribed Oxycodon pill a month for years if I had bad enough pain because I had to, because I didn't need them for one thing and also I HATE taking them. I just hate the way they make me feel. This pain is the worst I have ever had in my life, and I can't believe I was in that much pain, kicking screaming and crying, and they were treating me like that! They treated me like I was a criminal or something. These people are so messed up. Its like they heard the word "Oxycodon" and then no matter what we said to them, they already had it in their brainwashed mines that I was a junky or something. :screwy: It was the most screwed up thing I have ever witnessed.
What has happened to the people in that ER to make them act that way to me?
They also just acted like they didn't care at all.
During the 8 hours I was out there, I was in so much pain and screaming, that two Christian woman I had never met before actually knelt down beside with my mother and my wife and actually prayed over me, that the pain would stop. It made me feel better that someone in there actually cared. I felt those people in the ER did not care about me being in so much pain ever.
Once the ER doctor saw me, HE KNEW I wasn't faking it, and that I needed the pain medicine. He prescribed a shot of Demerol, and another for nausea, and prescribed me all types of pain medicine, anti-inflammatory medicine, muscle relaxer medicine, and a few more things as well I think. After I took all that, it FINALLY took the edge off the pain, but it still hurts a good bit, and even now I'm still in a lot of pain but its more manageable.
I also went in today and got an MRI, but my neurosurgeon physician cannot see it until Friday, because he is in Clinic doing surgery until Friday. So I can't even get a diagnosis until then, but I'm feel the MRI is going to show that my back has gotten worse at it is hurting more now that it ever has in my life.
Depending on what is wrong, I may be looking at a disc replacement surgery. Past that I don't know what else they can do for all this pain I'm having. No way am I going to deal with all this pain by taking tons pain medicine all the time.
There is more to the story, but that is all I feel like writing now, so please pray for me and send me as much positive thoughts as you can, that my pain will at least be less, and that I can start walking again, so I can go to the bathroom and use the restroom again. Right now, I cannot even walk. I have to be carried everywhere or go to the bathroom in a bowl, its awful. Please pray for me.
