Believe it or not, I have reverse Mental Illness. Years ago, I had absolutely no stress in my life and I would wake up between 3 AM and 3:15 AM and felt like I couldn't breathe, and I would panic. One time I woke up and panicked so bad that I ran through the house and broke a lamp and a small display case and then passed out in the bathroom. I went to the Doctor and spelled it all out and he gave me some low dose XANAX and he told me that I should take one anytime I felt edgy or anxious. To this day, I keep some with me all the time. The other day I mentioned it to a psychiatrist and in 2 seconds he said, "Lack of stimulation". I thought about it for a moment and realized that he was spot on. Anytime I'm focused on something like driving, playing my guitar, fooling with Ham Radio, target practice, or doing any kind of work, I never have a panic attack. I'm one of those people that always wants to be doing something and when I'm not my body slaps me and says "Hey, do something constructive idiot". The only thing I have to worry about XANAX is, you better not stop cold turkey because it can cause seizures or something worse. It is very comforting to now know exactly why I had those panic attacks. Yeah, I know, instead of taking a pill when I'm edgy I should just go and grab my guitar and play for a while. But, but , but, I'm watching my favorite TV program, and I don't want to miss it.
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